Ok, not trash but unwanted things that I dont want to take with me and I dont want to leave. So I have my dear brother my rock * to help with the loft today, I am a bit worried I'm not finding it as emotional as I thought, I guess the power of adrenaline and anticipation is taking over.
Its 2 days until I move!
I miss my girls like crazy though but i'm focused on making the next part of the life great for them x
Sunday, 24 August 2008
Thursday, 21 August 2008
bye bye babies
A sad day today, my beautiful girls are going on holiday and I wont see them until next saturday. It seems such a long time to be without them I have to see the positive in the situation being that they are on holiday with their father and I shall be able to get the moving and the home ready for their return. I shall miss them so much.
I hope to get the house ready for them and get some running in if my hip allows. I'll be allowed whatever tv and music on I like too, thats an alien concept as all I seem to get at the moment is Hannah Montana and High School Musical.
I am feeling so ready for this move, its beginning to drain me cleaning this house when its not going to be me here, and I truly dislike that feeling, I love a clean home and I know that there is very little emotional attatchment to this one.
5 days left
My friend Claire from HHWC posted this brilliant blog Cake Wrecks, go take a look, if you dont raise a smile please go to a dr and make sure you are still alive.
Have a lovely day all.
I hope to get the house ready for them and get some running in if my hip allows. I'll be allowed whatever tv and music on I like too, thats an alien concept as all I seem to get at the moment is Hannah Montana and High School Musical.
I am feeling so ready for this move, its beginning to drain me cleaning this house when its not going to be me here, and I truly dislike that feeling, I love a clean home and I know that there is very little emotional attatchment to this one.
5 days left
My friend Claire from HHWC posted this brilliant blog Cake Wrecks, go take a look, if you dont raise a smile please go to a dr and make sure you are still alive.
Have a lovely day all.
Monday, 18 August 2008
A week and a day
Its getting so close now.
I borrowed some money from my parents so I could get a few bits for the girls bedroom, I got some new bedding and a wardrobe and drawers for them each. I also have a new crockery and cutlery set, nothing fancy but its new and mine so thats great. I havent got a bed yet but my Mum won a single bed with two mattresses on ebay so at least I have a mattress to sleep on, I have no bedroom funishings either.
I havent a sofa or any living room funiture, but thats not a bit problem, what counts is that I will do my very best to make it into the home my girls deserve.
I borrowed some money from my parents so I could get a few bits for the girls bedroom, I got some new bedding and a wardrobe and drawers for them each. I also have a new crockery and cutlery set, nothing fancy but its new and mine so thats great. I havent got a bed yet but my Mum won a single bed with two mattresses on ebay so at least I have a mattress to sleep on, I have no bedroom funishings either.
I havent a sofa or any living room funiture, but thats not a bit problem, what counts is that I will do my very best to make it into the home my girls deserve.
Thursday, 14 August 2008
Its all go, go, go!
Life is crazy right now.
I am moving on the 26th august, the week my two girls are away for the week with their dad. Which works out quite well as I can get as much done as I can without having to worry about them getting hurt or lost during the move.
Finacially I am still in trouble. The CTC have issued me a bill of £360 which needs paying by the 18th of August, I'm trying to allow them for me to pay half (seeing as it was a bill from when x-dh and I were together) but I'm struggling.
Maybe I was too hasty to think of moving out so quickly but I needed to have a secure place for my girls before the next school term began (2nd sept)
Its painful to think of how easy I have made it for him, but I am strong enough to direct my thoughts and feelings into my present then worry about the past.
the support I'm getting is varied, some people just dont know what to say, others are so supportive it makes me want to cry and then there are those that critise me and try to get to me, well I'm sorry that my manorisms and strength are not to their liking but I am doing my best.
Its difficult to keep the house how I like it when I know its not mine. I'm not taking much from the house at all so its hard to want to keep everywhere so nice and clean. Thats not to imply that I want to live in a sty for the next two weeks until I move just that knowing he'll be back here with his new girlfriend why should I keep the sofas perfect and worry about dust on the door frames? yet its against my personality and beliefs to leave it for the sake of being a pain, for as long as this is my childrens place of living I shall be doing my duties.
I am moving on the 26th august, the week my two girls are away for the week with their dad. Which works out quite well as I can get as much done as I can without having to worry about them getting hurt or lost during the move.
Finacially I am still in trouble. The CTC have issued me a bill of £360 which needs paying by the 18th of August, I'm trying to allow them for me to pay half (seeing as it was a bill from when x-dh and I were together) but I'm struggling.
Maybe I was too hasty to think of moving out so quickly but I needed to have a secure place for my girls before the next school term began (2nd sept)
Its painful to think of how easy I have made it for him, but I am strong enough to direct my thoughts and feelings into my present then worry about the past.
the support I'm getting is varied, some people just dont know what to say, others are so supportive it makes me want to cry and then there are those that critise me and try to get to me, well I'm sorry that my manorisms and strength are not to their liking but I am doing my best.
Its difficult to keep the house how I like it when I know its not mine. I'm not taking much from the house at all so its hard to want to keep everywhere so nice and clean. Thats not to imply that I want to live in a sty for the next two weeks until I move just that knowing he'll be back here with his new girlfriend why should I keep the sofas perfect and worry about dust on the door frames? yet its against my personality and beliefs to leave it for the sake of being a pain, for as long as this is my childrens place of living I shall be doing my duties.
Monday, 4 August 2008
An overdue update
Today, its the 4th of August 2008. The days have passed since I last posted here and there is good reason for that. personal problems that are difficult to post of.
I have split from my husband, we married in August 2000 so I'll blame the 7-year-itch. It was strange, I came home from a great 2hr yoga session to sit and say it was over. Almost as simply as I write it now. He cried but I never, I think that says alot. I then went for a 3mile run. yes, I cope with things strangely. That was the 23rd of June 2008. 6 weeks on, he has filled for divorce, found a new girlfriend (well after 2 weeks anyway) and put the house up for sale. I have found a house to rent, sorted out the help I can get, been out dog-racing with my friends and become an even stronger woman through this.
The house is tidier than ever, and will be even better when August 25th comes and I take as much as I can from here and move into my new place.
I have split from my husband, we married in August 2000 so I'll blame the 7-year-itch. It was strange, I came home from a great 2hr yoga session to sit and say it was over. Almost as simply as I write it now. He cried but I never, I think that says alot. I then went for a 3mile run. yes, I cope with things strangely. That was the 23rd of June 2008. 6 weeks on, he has filled for divorce, found a new girlfriend (well after 2 weeks anyway) and put the house up for sale. I have found a house to rent, sorted out the help I can get, been out dog-racing with my friends and become an even stronger woman through this.
The house is tidier than ever, and will be even better when August 25th comes and I take as much as I can from here and move into my new place.
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